My tears are colored with anger, pain, grief, sorrow, despair, relief, hope, love…
Everything in between…
I loved you.
I hated you.
I feared you….
But now…
When I think of you I don’t imagine this invincible man who had all the power in the world….
I see a scared, broken boy….who never healed the pain in his heart….
Who used intimidation and control to have power over those around him…
Who never knew real, unconditional love and kindness…
And I cry for you as I cry for myself….
I know your path was painful…
But I need to heal mine now….