it bothers me that I could love someone that hurt me….
as if there’s something wrong with me….
but I never knew it was pain…
when it was mixed with toxic love….
I feel guilty for caring for you…
ashamed as you throw me away…
I feel even worse that I saw for a time only the good in you…
it blinded me against everything else…
the pain runs deep…
intertwined with shards of memories…
I loved you….
I looked up to you…
and I saw it all in your eyes…
but I’m laying this story to rest…
my eyes on the horizon ahead…
thankful for the life I’ve been given…
letting you go a little at a time…
Lauren Kim Art 