I waited forever….
For you to change….
To see a glimmer of hope within those dark depths…
I missed birthdays and holidays and celebrations…
Because I knew in my heart you could change…
You could be the man I believed so much in…
You could one day see all the pain and tears you left me with…
You could one day love me in all the ways I so needed to be loved….
You could save me from….the cruelest sides of you….
But it wasn’t meant to be…
I wasn’t the one to change you….
Only you could do that…
I waited on you forever….
As my heart waited on me to love me…
It took a few lifetimes…
A couple lonely, empty nights….
But one day…
I woke up…
And instead of needing you to love me…
I found myself needing me to love me…
It was enough…
I am enough…
And for the first time….
It doesn’t matter to me that you could never see that….
If I see the beauty in me…
If I believe in my worth….
Than that loneliness and emptiness I always felt around you….
Begins to fill with all the love I found within me…
All the love I’m beginning to grow…
And for that lesson…
I will always be thankful for.
