I waited for him to heal the pain he left me with…

And I waited for him to save me from the nightmares he created….

And I dreamed of the moment he would be truly sorry and make the darkness disappear….

I waited forever….

For a fantasy…

One not destined to become reality….

I would have given anything back then to hear real love in his voice….

I would have given anything back then to see real love in his eyes…

But that was back then….

And I am not the person I was….

I used to see his face in every man I ever met….

Without knowing why….

And I used to feel the same fear in every breath….

Without knowing why….

I held onto the hope….

A beautiful hope…

That he would change….

That he would see all the pain he caused to those who loved him….

But he never did….

No…

No I never saw real love in his eyes….

I never heard real love in his voice….

But I created a fantasy of it and kept it in my heart….

I kept that fantasy alive….

I kept the flames warm…

Until….

I knew….

I knew it would never…

Bring him back…

It would never make him change….

But it would…

Keep me imprisoned forever…

Sometimes you have to see a person for who they truly are…

Not for the person you wish more than anything for them to be…

Sometimes you have to see the reality shining through…

The most beautiful and made up fantasy….

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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