I wanted to be adored…
So I hid beneath a world of fears…
Everything I imagined…
Only thinly covered all the painful tears….
I was just a child…growing up in a scary place…
My life…my days…my self…
All of it I wanted to erase…
So I created a new reality…
That only existed in my head…
One where I could never be abandoned…or left…or be unloved…
I put my dreams and hopes and life in this fantasy…
One I think deep down I know could never come true…
But sometimes when you’re in pain…
You do what you have to do…
My imagination…
Just ran away with this story and cinematic ending…
But the longer I lived in this fantasy…
My heart and soul grew wary of pretending…