leave no one behind….
what happened to me left a permanent mark…
for a long time I felt cursed…
as if worthlessness was tied forever on my name…
I don’t know when it all started to irreversibly change…
love isn’t fear and locked chains…
love isn’t sold for a price…
I tried to win at your own games….
I tried to find this impossible, perfect solution to make you happy…
and I never could…
but you couldn’t either…
it wasn’t my job to heal you…
it wasn’t my responsibility to make you feel good…
in your world…
in your world…
all the colors fade to black…
all the warmth disappears…
your heart is empty and cold…
frozen in a place you cannot free yourself from…
and every life and person you touch…
you need to bring down…
you need to cause suffering…
so you can forget your pain…
so you can escape your own prison…
but you don’t win in the end….
life is not fairy tales and romantic stories…
you might appear to be so powerful…
you might wear a golden jeweled crown…
but you…
you won’t ever know real love…
you won’t ever feel real compassion…
and no matter how you try to fill the hole in your heart….
nothing will ever come close…
because you choose fear instead…
you took refuge in hurting others…
you felt satisfaction in wrecking havoc on those around you…
and I wish it was different…
I wish it could have been different for you…
Lauren Kim Art 