apart

don’t want to give you any more air time…

don’t want your signature to be dripping from each one of these lines…

obsessed and distressed…I was messed up when you were there…

all the games and power plays…you were so much stronger and I couldn’t put up a good fight…it wasn’t fair…

but I replayed your movie time and time again..until I knew every single word of your victimhood…

I didn’t leave a long time ago…and deep down in my heart I knew I should…

you tried to teach me that love was what you could take from someone, not what you could give…

and you did everything to brainwash me into believing you were my sole reason to ever live…

and I cried enough tears over you…

and I lost myself in what you do…

but I’ve given you all my screen time, all of my days…

too convinced of my worthlessness and back then I never saw another way…

a boy like you…could never understand what it means to really love…

you, and you alone, that’s who you always put above…

and I let you walk all over me and my heart…

had to get some distance to fully see the promises and lies all come apart…