why

why can’t you love me… why can’t you care… why do I obsess over all the ways life just isn’t fair… why can’t you change… why can’t I simply disengage… why can’t you see my tears… why do you hide behind your ego’s fears…. why am I still here… why do I desperately need you…

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future ties

I want to let go… But I need to hold on… I want to forgive… But hating you was once the only way I lived… The trauma…messed me up and had me in this way… Too long pretending to smile and act like it was all okay… Was it me or the memories..that sent you…

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golden frame

oh god… don’t know if I loved you or the pain more… it’s funny what you begin to convince yourself to live for… but I wanted to be the victim and lay you with the blame… except this ideology left me always with the guilt and gut wrenching shame… and it’s still yours… the way…

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broken

pain is a familiar feeling… when you feel it all the time… and love is a fleeting emotion… when the journey is an impossible climb… sweating fevers and a falling out… but you… you still say in more than words what we were about… it kills me what could have been… when love was a…

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I loved you until…

I loved you until… The tears ran rivers through my heart… I loved you until… The pain and my life began to depart… I loved you until… It hurt to be around you and it hurt to breathe… I loved you until… I knew rejection and abandonment was all I could receive… I loved you…

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painted

take my hand… take my heart… but I … can’t trust you won’t shatter the pieces… and break them all apart… words are words until you give more… close the curtains….lock the door…. a world of twilight and endless days…. my time is lost in all the mays… maybe it’s all just a fantasy… maybe…

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more

love is tears…. love is pain… love is trying again and again… even if it was all in vain… love is complicated… love isn’t machine operated… love is a smoke screen…here one minute and gone the next…. love is…not holding a mentality of everything you’re against… love is vulnerability… love is not always concerned with…

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feelings

oh I have a bad feeling every time you walk into the room… sitting with this sharp panic surrounding an inevitable sense of doom… breathe in the worries and let them stain my skin… I’ve lost count if it’s me or you, who has the most wins… but love wasn’t meant to be played… there…

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fires

love is everything… even when you have nothing to lose… love…will be the one I forever choose… and I close my eyes tonight… fear and pain still within sight… but there’s light on the horizon… there’s you, the lies and… my impossible hopes and desires… you either ignite or diminish these fires…

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until

sing me a song… one of romance… I close my eyes… lost in this midnight dance… all the treasures in the world.. without you… there’s no real value to hold… love me until… we’re carefree and old… love me until…

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