why can’t you love me…

why can’t you care…

why do I obsess over all the ways life just isn’t fair…

why can’t you change…

why can’t I simply disengage…

why can’t you see my tears…

why do you hide behind your ego’s fears….

why am I still here…

why do I desperately need you to finally care…

why do I cling onto the hope you will one day….

make all the pain and hurt go away…

why do I see your face in everyone I meet…

why do I walk away from you and always feel the weight of defeat…

why do I cry out your name in the middle of the night…

why do I still believe you will be the one to make this all alright…

why are you the one I need to fix me…

why did I blindly believe in a fantasy….

why do you turn away again and again coldly…

why do I continue to scream and shout and break down so you could finally see….

why do I…

why do I need you to see worth in me…

why do I want you to break free….

why do I hold onto this fallen, broken dream…

why do I convince myself you aren’t the abusive person I know you don’t want to be…

why do I create this impossible reality…

why do I cry out for you to finally….finally see…

me..

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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