just

Just let go… But I’m obsessed with the pain… I get in my way time and time again… Just stop… Just let me go…. Pain and hopeless thoughts cannot be all I know…. One step forward… Ten steps back… It’s too easy to think of all the ways… I truly lack… Anxiety gives everything a…

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numb

I do everything I can to avoid the pain… But nothing ever works when you’re the one running through my brain…. Lost track of the times I had to get away…. Lost track of times I numbed all of my emotions to feel okay…. Because I can’t get rid of this notion…. You’re somehow going…

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normal

I thought it was all normal… The memories in my head…. But everything about my life back then… I was always seconds away from being dead…. Not to get too dramatic…at least that’s what he’d say…. I just struggled immensely to get through a single day…. It was normal to have intense, explosive fights that…

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normalcy

lately don’t know where my mind’s been at… every effort I make to create a change feels futile and falls flat… days pass by and blur into one another… I try to move a step forward but end up hiding underneath cold covers… all anyone wants is normalcy… but what we had… no long feels…

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flight

there was a time… I needed a hand to hold…. there was a time… where everywhere I looked… fear felt familiar and cold… love was too scary to even let in… and I let myself believe… love could no longer find a way to win… but there’s always hope…even in the darkest of nights… sometimes…

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try

be brave… even if your heart is trembling in fear…. hold onto your love… when all you have left are tears… silence the background noise… face your past nightmares…. nothing will break you when you are meant to fly… even if you don’t believe you can… don’t be afraid to try…

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day

it’s easy to break someone… to steal all their happiness and joy… it’s a coward’s default of choices… to shatter and completely destroy… behind it all… love catches you in the dark… free fall… but there’s hope in another day… let it happen… come what may….

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