numb

I do everything I can to avoid the pain…

But nothing ever works when you’re the one running through my brain….

Lost track of the times I had to get away….

Lost track of times I numbed all of my emotions to feel okay….

Because I can’t get rid of this notion….

You’re somehow going to keep hurting me and healing is a life long devotion….

I have this irrational fear….

Self sabotage and pain is a dangerous pair….

Why can’t I just convince myself everything is fine and I’m safe…

I thought moving on would be easier but this just isn’t the case….

I have to get out of this head space….

But healing and letting go…

Doesn’t ask you to set the pace….