I do everything I can to avoid the pain…
But nothing ever works when you’re the one running through my brain….
Lost track of the times I had to get away….
Lost track of times I numbed all of my emotions to feel okay….
Because I can’t get rid of this notion….
You’re somehow going to keep hurting me and healing is a life long devotion….
I have this irrational fear….
Self sabotage and pain is a dangerous pair….
Why can’t I just convince myself everything is fine and I’m safe…
I thought moving on would be easier but this just isn’t the case….
I have to get out of this head space….
But healing and letting go…
Doesn’t ask you to set the pace….
