All articles filed in May 29, 2020

self love and fear of self are opposites… for so long I feared my self… fearful I was not good enough…. fearful I was not…just enough… but a new beginning means the end of another…. self destruction cannot be a part of my life anymore… the old ways must end…  

had you on a pedestal… a perfect one painted white.. you looked like a hero of dreams in every angle and light… but placing all the blame on you seems too easily done… every time I tried to move on in the past…I always found myself back at one… but this feels different…in a way…

poised smiles… calm hands… a lifetime of performances… one only insanity understands… because life isn’t an act… there’s no written lines… but maybe… there’s a purpose to its beautiful and grand design…

every moment… there’s a choice between love and fear… holding on to secrets… cherishing both the laughter and the tears… life was always a gift… given without demands… sometimes you must lose everything first to begin to understand…

you have to change the inside first… external validation and worth always have a dire thirst… fear cannot kill love no matter how hard it tries… love, even the smallest amount….refuses to die… all my trust and faith in love…every single day… but fear is who I met on the course of love… in a…

new road maps to love… no longer tied to fear… taking time to myself… for more than self care… reflection and healing day by day… accepting and letting go of the little things in some ways… I know now where I belong… even if you don’t know it… you have a heart that will be…

welcome a new era… one of love and peace… a place where no one fills their heart with hate, where love isn’t about a number or item found on a plain, white sheet…. more forgiving and kind… more vulnerable and real… I say what I need to… I feel what I need to feel…  

did everything I could to drown out your voice… turned to self destructive addictions until it felt like I no longer had any choice… but numbing every emotion and denying all the pain… never stopped the clouds from forming and the inevitability of pouring rain… the only way through is to forgive you for the…

my past life… I lived for the extremes.. lost and loyal to a world… that never held the same glitter and gold as it first seemed.. a life… where every corner holds the promise of power or unforgiving death.. anxiety, dread, panic, and fear consume every single breath… there were elaborate parties and expensive costumes……

royals… pure in blood but never intentions… my mind can become the best and worst of inventions… but the desire to control is no longer with me… fear designs the most beautiful illusions to prevent you to clearly see… you are the same as me… human and vulnerable… we do what we can to feel…