did everything I could to drown out your voice…
turned to self destructive addictions until it felt like I no longer had any choice…
but numbing every emotion and denying all the pain…
never stopped the clouds from forming and the inevitability of pouring rain…
the only way through is to forgive you for the tears…
slowly erasing the ways of old by loving me throughout these hard, lonely years…
because healing is something you must first do alone…
still hurt to leave behind the people and places I’ve always known…
but then I look back…
to marvel at all the ways I’ve changed and grown…
