today

wish I could rewrite the past…. all the days, years, lifetimes… they pass away too fast…. until I’m left with only the choices I wish I had made…. your hands were always there…. holding the blade…. still I could have just walked away… away… still listen to every word you have to say… wanted to…

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still

fell fast in a fantasy… lost myself and all the love within me… a stubborn heart and mind…. but I always tried to be loving and kind… your words are cold and cruel as they pierce my skin… if you want it… then you take the win… you always have the win… just stop the…

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say

shared laughter…. shared tears…. but I don’t want to let you go…. when I know at the end of tonight I have to…. when I’m not the one who makes you happy anymore…. you can’t hold onto someone who doesn’t love you anymore…. memories in this home… and I would give almost anything just to……

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yesterday

I would give…. My all…. To have you in yesterdays…. A moment in time where you still loved me…. Still cared…. To hold your hand one more time…. To laugh with you… To fall asleep next to you… But all the love has gone from your eyes…. Replaced with a coldness I have never felt….…

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miss you

lost in the reasons… but I can’t find one good enough…. good enough…. I miss the things we will never do together again… I miss the love in your eyes… I miss you… I miss you…

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long ago

you were my world… all the colors…. all the love…. without you I…. struggle to smile… struggle to breathe… struggle to see… how happiness left you long ago…  

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lost

you’re not the man I thought you were… loved you completely but all you could talk about at the end was her… and I’m broken beyond words…beyond all explanations…. but in order to heal I have to feel all these painful feelings and cold sensations… I could write a thousand letters I will never send……

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moving on

there’s a new, brighter future ahead of me… the past me doesn’t know what I’ve become… all my strength and courage from the adversity… cleared away all the debris and distractions… the past me doesn’t know the future I now believe in… the past me doesn’t know the life I now live in…. for so…

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life

it was a gift…. one he unknowingly gave to me… the polar extremes… the highs and lows…. introduced me to… how to truly cherish life… how it could end in a moment…. how the most beautiful things are in…. the love and kindness we give to each other…. not in material things… not in power…

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