I didn’t want to be hurt…

I couldn’t bare the thought of…someone telling me that I wasn’t worthy of being loved…

Not again…

He made it so hard….

To ever believe someone would actually, truly, completely love me….

For no other reason than for me….

For twenty years of my life all I knew of love was pure fear…

Fear that I am not good enough….

Fear that I do not deserve love….

Fear that…

Someone will see the real me and abandon me….

Deciding that I wasn’t worth it to them…

Telling me what I already believed to be true inside….

I do not deserve love….

That’s the lesson I grew up with and protected…

So I hid….

I hid my true self….

Out of fear…

Out of pain…

Never wanted to feel those tears ever again…

But the truth is….

Those who never dare….will never have love…

Because love is the most courageous act that exists….

Fear is easy…

Fear is simple…

Fear is black and white….

Fear is a coward….

Fear risks nothing….

And therefore risks everything….

Because a life without love…

Is one lived in a prison….

An unbreakable, small, cold, cruel, self made prison….

Love was yours the moment you asked for it….

The moment you decided it was more important than your fear….

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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