I feel the world falling apart around me…
Shattered pieces in fragile hands…
Love and violence….
Hate and forgiveness…
Everything cutting into me with a precise blade….
Until tears flow with a brokenness I haven’t felt in a very, very long time…
Pain fills every breath….
Grief in every heartbeat….
I wish….
I just wish…
You could see me breaking….
Hold me in your arms…
Tell me it’s all going to be okay….
Reassure me this is all a nightmare….
And I’ll wake up soon….
But when I wake up….
The reality settles around me in a darkness I cannot describe….
A paralyzing prison….
It kills me to see….
It hurts to feel….
I don’t want to pretend I’m okay….
I can’t bare to fake another smile…
I am broken…
And only love….
Can heal me….
And only forgiveness…
Can free me…