it still hurts when I think of you…
it still makes me angry…
and I try….
try to forget…
forget all you did…
I guess after all this time I still care….
I care that I never received your love…
I care that the love you did give me was never enough…
I care that you made me feel like I was the one who was never enough…
it doesn’t kill me anymore…
but I guess there will always be old wounds to heal…
at one time you were my world…
even if it was a dark one….
in my heart the best goodbyes are ones spoken sincerely…
I never thought you would be gone from my life like this….
never imagined the end would feel complete…
because the girl who belonged to someone like you…
is gone now…
I’m saying goodbye to you….but also to a part of me….
a version of me that no longer exists…
it feels right…
under you I felt like being me…the real me was forbidden…
but now I see…
you feared the light in me….
because you diminished yours long ago….
it hurts me…
everything you did…
but I’m healing….
my love…
my compassion…
will never stop….
I hope you find peace….
I hope you find love…
Lauren Kim Art 