love

I can tell you the exact moment….

My entire life shattered….

Never the same again….

After it never felt the same again….

I remember so clearly…

The panic and fear racing in every thought….

My body tense and paralyzed….

His eyes….

I remember his eyes best….

Darkness and hatred raging in shades of nightmares….

He wanted to hurt me….

He wanted to do worse…

My life meant nothing….

Even as my life slipped away I saw no warmth in his heart…

No love in his soul….

Only rage…

I don’t recall how many times he broke me….

After a certain point you just stop caring….

The only thought that got me through those times….

Was imagining a better day….

A brighter day….

One I knew in my heart would come….

A day without fearful tears….

A day without him hiding in shadows and dreams…

A day where love would find me…

And I never knew….

Love would find me….

Love would give me a reason….

To live…

To dream…

To hope…

All the darkness in the world…

It couldn’t shatter the smallest belief….

In love…