lost

I hate how missing you feels like a betrayal…

I don’t even know the story I’m living in and its true portrayal…

Just tell me I’m not worth it and I’ll believe it faithfully…

Just tell me I’m not the only one you’ll ever love and always see….

Every good thing in my life I question…because I don’t deserve happiness…

I chase after people and memories..but it’s the feeling of abandonment I miss…

Because when you fall in love with misery…

Unconditional love and care feels like a fantasy…

I tried so hard to leave the prison he made me live in…

But every time I feel empowered the world twists and turns and spins…

I could never fully trust anyone…when love always had a cost….

I’m still trying to heal the wounds and repair all I ever lost…