he fucked me up…
that part is true….
he messed with my head…
that part is real…
but the secret to healing…
is not reliving all he ever did…
especially when…
back then I was only a kid…
I don’t want to live angry…
and I don’t want to live afraid…
I’m tired of always living in the shadows and painful shades…
so if you’re going to throw me under a bus….
I better prepare…
you said…
you said you’d ruin me just for the sake of a personal dare…
but underneath it all…
the layers of pride and big words…
I know your tears…
and I can’t help but to…
see your pain and something in me begins to care…
but caring isn’t the same as saving you…
in life…
we make choices and you’re accountable for all that you do….
I take a step…
I take a leap…
Close my eyes…
Just to see you when I sleep….
And I’m ….
I’m the one you never got to keep…
Lauren Kim Art 