I hate how I try to pull away…
As the emptiness settles around my heart….
Panic alarms in my head…
As I’m left with the moment I realize…
How dependent I became on you….
How even a day without you feels like a lifetime…
Knowing it’s wrong doesn’t make it easier for me…
Because I want to reach out and tell you I miss you…
My nerves and fears…
Mix with the salt and loss of my tears…
But I just can’t…
It hurts like hell to walk away…
It feels like it’s killing me…
But we have to make choices even when….
It’s not easy….
There’s a hole where you left….
And I know you can’t fill it…
No you can’t heal me…
The damage is mine to own….
And I have to…
Keep letting you go…
A little at a time…
Lauren Kim Art 