I’m in a dark place….
Because you were not someone to replace…
But the poison you gave me still runs through my veins…
Even when nothing between us now remains…
The pain tears through my heart and I…
Think of you and what we lost every time I begin to cry….
My coping mechanisms and avoidance….no longer keep me safe from your memories…
Even now when I close my eyes, you are all I ever see…
But you….
You are also dangerous and harmful to me….
And I…
Can’t hold onto you…
And still be….
Free…..