nightmares

you’ve been a part of my life for so long…

I never questioned it…

never thought I’d be without you….

you meant something to me….

I won’t deny it….

I won’t leave you with lies…

we started with such promises and I…

may always wonder where it all went so wrong…

but somewhere along the line…

love became fear….

safety became harm…

and my hero….

became my enemy…

and then…

nothing….

the loss is fatal to me…

the grief is real and unfiltered…

it hurts us both…

but we both know it’s for the best….

even if it feels like a certain kind of death…

I’m saying my good byes for the last time….

I’m blocking you out…

leaving this dark place….

leaving my past behind me…

you needed a damsel to save…

but I was never meant to play the role….

now it’s my time…

to take back my life, my self, my love….

no longer under your house or your control…

you only had me in nightmares…

but the worst part of it all is…

you’re still living there….