enough

I told you countless times… your love was not good enough… you were not good enough… just like… he told me…. just like I heard a million times… growing up… I wish his words…. didn’t leave my lips…  

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losing you

losing you brought out the worst in me… battles I thought I won long ago… vices I thought I defeated once and for all… I threw words and insults… hoping they would hurt you… hoping they would change the choice you made… and I feel this shame… this guilt…. for what I did to you……

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real love

dare to love…even when fear is easy…. dare to let go…even when holding on is familiar… dare to forgive…even when you’d rather have the upper hand… dare to be kind…even when poisoning another feels good… dare to be vulnerable…even when you want to put on armor… dare to show your true colors…even when you’re afraid……

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regrets

I said a lot of things out of anger… more out of pain… because when I imagined my life without you… I was in a place of eternal rain… fear is a lonely prison… fear paints a dark kind of vision… and I hated my dad for what he did to me… then I…. then…

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