Men

Ever since I was young…I’ve feared men and their intentions… Too many experiences where harm was done to me with no interventions… The pain always returns to its source… But for so long my fears have controlled my life’s course… But all men aren’t the same… And I no longer want to live in these…

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Perfect

Set a table… Make it nice… Breathe deeply… Throw of the dice… Perfect lies… Sound so sweet… Her heart designed to defy… I don’t want to be perfect anymore… I don’t want my parents’ legacy to be the future I choose to live for… I’m no longer alone…no longer afraid… Let whatever wrongs against me…

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Tomorrow

You loved me when I couldn’t love myself… A dark remedy of sweet and sad memories… When did a moment become an addictive dependency… I’ll never know… Always hope you are well… As the last of these feelings fade… You deserve all the happiness this life has to offer… And I hope you find it…

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Resistance

I was resistant to changing… My excuses motivated to shift all the blame… But the only way forward is to finally… Leave the game…. I see a brighter life ahead of me… Finally embracing everything…. The emptiness we carry can never be filled by fantasies… But embracing the love, pain and joy…can we find a…

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Sick

Old ways leave me feeling sick… Addictive patterns are a hard habit to permanently kick… But my heart can’t take living in this way… Sometimes you have to let go to cherish a new beginning and brighter days… The terrified little girl in me that once was helpless and powerless… It’s time to say goodbye…

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Securities

I used to be… A prisoner of my own insecurities… Constantly locked in a game of comparisons and emotional immaturities… All the while never seeing in this way.. My heart could never be free…. And the greatest battle is within ourselves… Sometimes self acceptance and love is what we need to help… I couldn’t ever…

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Trust

Trust is a hard thing when my heart once was held hostage by you… But even when you tried to force it…you must have known the love you wanted to control wasn’t ever true… And in the end I still would be the one thanking you… Not mad I’m only humbled by everything I’ve ever…

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Kingdom

Wrapped in gold and pretty little things.. But even the finest kingdom holds an empty heart without wings… Cold smiles and hollow gestures of care… Once upon a time I only had walls and defenses to openly share… Love could be kind… Whatever you dream of may you one day find… You can’t make someone…

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control

it’s all an illusion… the idea of control… when all you want to do is protect yourself from the pain you can’t stand to feel… but every step and action builds a world that is concrete and unreal… you build walls instead of connections to those you love… every interaction becomes a power play of…

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Stories

Sipped enough of poison… Until it was all I knew… Counted all my enemies and trusted allies were so very few… But I wrote myself in stories where I needed a hero just like you… The longer I searched within myself…I couldn’t deny what I already knew… We play the home videos our parents and…

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