I have a thousand reasons the ones I love always leave…

Terrified of not being worthy of love and it takes away my ability to breathe…

I try to push you away…

Self Sabotage everything to make you realize there’s nothing here for you to stay…

And I battle with these thoughts and nightmares every single day…

But don’t feel sorry for me because no one else can sit with the blame…

Carefully peeling back these deep layers of guilt and ever present pain…

But happiness is even scarier to me than misery…

I wish I could make you see…

There’s a sea of fears and insecurities..

A second from drowning me….

Yet I won’t stop fighting…

No I never give in…

All the love I ever needed…

Still resides within…

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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