blamed the troubles of my life for a long time on you…
then woke up to realize the drama and lies I tied myself to…
humble my heart to find the love I was missing…
something different now in the real way we’re kissing…
and I created and re-created the nightmares that were familiar and “safe”…
but I’m my worst enemy in my mind and this impossible place…
it’s a strange thing when fear and panic become all you love and repeat…
hiding forever because my true flawed and broken self I could never fully meet….
until life came at me…and wouldn’t let up until my ego took a seat…
I may not have been the one who started the trauma and abuse in my memories…
but all those tears and pain and scars…they never determined the person I would be….
and I’m seeing clearer now…when I learn how to love each and every part of me….
may love and kindness always be what you truly see…
Lauren Kim Art 