I always have a default setting in my mind….
Guilt…shame….suffering….
No matter how far I run away….
The same cycle is where I always find…
But the more I deny the truth….the more it stays with me….
I run from you but then I keep believing in this fantasy…
I wish I could take it all back it that meant finding you in love once more…
It kills me when you hesitate….your heart no longer confident or sure…
I blame myself for all the ways I failed you…
Lost a little in knowing what path would be the most true…
