Deceive

You lied to me… I say it to myself… Because all the reasons I had for… Building walls… Destroying all chances to be loved… It was all a lie… Fear whispers… I’ll keep you safe… I’ll keep you from harm.. But you slowly kill love to prevent the pain… Because not feeling anything… Is better…

Read More

Smoke

Addiction whispers the prettiest lies… Just one more.. Just a little bit… Just once more… Until… You wake up to find yourself in a prison of your own making… Self deception is the hardest the break… Because you’ve fooled yourself into thinking… That you’re still free… When the path you’ve taken.. Will never let it…

Read More

Reframe

Everywhere I turn.. There’s another page…another story to slowly burn… I write myself in a dangerous and fear filled world… Never seeing it was my own heart that had grown cold… But to see it all through a new and brighter view… Sometimes you don’t meet the darker sides of yourself until karma fully echoes…

Read More

Loving Me

I spent decades loving others… Pouring into empty and lonely hearts… But the one I should have cared for… Was my very own… Traveled the world over for a love that would complete me…. But I never found it there… Killing parts of me… Losing parts of me… Breaking parts of me… All to feel…

Read More

fall

I wrapped myself in the comfort of the sweetest dreams… When I was left all alone without love… And I imagined one that would never… Never leave…. But there’s a danger in always… Living lost in a hopeless fantasy… And I turned away so… Innocently… When I realized… Loving someone was fatal when… You love…

Read More

pain

pain is watching your mom disappear and fade away… pain is seeing a killer’s rage in your father’s eyes… I look at their lives… Through an infinite mirror of stories… And it shatters me completely every time… Because I know they weren’t happy… I know they weren’t free… In my heart I… I wish they…

Read More

break

I don’t want to repeat what my family did to me… If I have children of my own… They shouldn’t feel like they’re living in a nightmare reality…. My biggest fear was not harm coming to me… But that I would repeat and pass down my past my traumas the way they were passed down…

Read More

Leave

Why won’t the past ever leave me… Why is your face in every single person I meet… And I have issues…I do… But you would too if you knew what I’ve been through… Used to wear my pain like a badge on broken glass… Life slips away… Too fast… And I only miss you when…

Read More

Cloud Cover

I erase you.. In every beautiful memory too… Because the pain is too much for me to feel… And I question it every day… Wondering if it was truly real… I try to forget as I lose myself to fantasy… When all is said and done I wonder of the darker shades within me… All…

Read More

Be

Be who you are and never feel like you need to hide… Don’t let shame and guilt keep the real you imprisoned and broken inside… Because the only way to heal is to be seen and heard… For so long I thought depression and anxiety would be magically cured… But you do what you can…

Read More