pain

pain is watching your mom disappear and fade away… pain is seeing a killer’s rage in your father’s eyes… I look at their lives… Through an infinite mirror of stories… And it shatters me completely every time… Because I know they weren’t happy… I know they weren’t free… In my heart I… I wish they…

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break

I don’t want to repeat what my family did to me… If I have children of my own… They shouldn’t feel like they’re living in a nightmare reality…. My biggest fear was not harm coming to me… But that I would repeat and pass down my past my traumas the way they were passed down…

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Leave

Why won’t the past ever leave me… Why is your face in every single person I meet… And I have issues…I do… But you would too if you knew what I’ve been through… Used to wear my pain like a badge on broken glass… Life slips away… Too fast… And I only miss you when…

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Cloud Cover

I erase you.. In every beautiful memory too… Because the pain is too much for me to feel… And I question it every day… Wondering if it was truly real… I try to forget as I lose myself to fantasy… When all is said and done I wonder of the darker shades within me… All…

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