I didn’t want to see it….
The dark shades in my heart….
Ones where I hurt myself…
And hurt others…
I drank my own poison…
Long after childhood memories…
And I made excuses and shifted the blame…
When I was the one who chose not to fly free…
My life shattered completely apart….
Then love…
Real love grew within my heart…
I don’t want to be…
A false version of my self anymore….
I don’t want to play a scripted role….
There was a deep wound in me…
Longing to be filled…
But nothing outside of me could come close to healing….
All the wounds and brokenness….
I don’t want to be…
Her anymore…
I spent much of my life feeling so worthless…
So alone and afraid…
Completely helpless….
Powerless for so long…
I didn’t want to be powerless any longer…
I don’t want to go back to the life….
To the person…
To the story….
I once had….
I’m leaving it all behind…
For a new life…
A new beginning…
One entirely of my own.
