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funny how you take love for granted….

like it could always be there….

but as soon as it’s gone…

your heart struggles to find a single breath of air…

it takes a shattered heart to see….

every little shade completely differently…

you left me with a collection of glittering regrets…

when I told you…

I wished we had never met….

but with some distance I see a little clearer….

sometimes life’s hardest lessons…

have you looking at the bitter truths in the mirror…

I couldn’t love you….

because for so long I never could love myself….

and I couldn’t let you in….

when for so long I grew cold….

in those dark years I yelled out for help….

and I brought all my scars and baggage into our relationship….

all the sins of my father…

poured over us like poison as….

our love began to slip….

I’ll take all the blame…

no more excuses for my cruelty and shame….

for I did to you…

what was done to me….

when all I ever wanted….

all I ever wanted was to…

be set free…

and I thought you could be the one to free me…

but all along….

all along….

the unhealed wounds stayed locked inside….

unable to let me be….

and I had to heal all of me…

to finally…

break free….