Growing up was kind of lonely…

Emotional neglect gave a way for my own fantasies to accompany me…

But I think that’s why it’s so difficult to let others in…

You get so used to being independent…you hide yourself in every smile and every grin…

So easy to push the ones you love away…

Even harder for me to be the one to stay…

Sitting pretty in silence and reflecting on my life and memories…

For so long all I ever wanted was to break free…

And now that I’m here….and now that I have no more battles to fight…

I have to find a way to let comfort, stability, love to feel secure and right…

Letting go of that inner struggle isn’t easy…but to heal and move on…is what I need to do now…

There are so many moments I look back and wonder how…

How did I survive…

How did I live to see another day…

Everything comes full circle and love will eventually find its own way…

And forgiveness isn’t simple…when the pain is still there…

But I finally realized…I was the one I needed to choose love and to take care…

Because you could wait forever for an apology that will never happen…

And you can either let life brighten and fulfill you or let your heart grow cold and blacken…

Innocence is the treasure of youth…but wisdom comes with lessons we need to learn…

Whatever you give out…is surely to one day return…

In the end we’re all just human…with scars and flaws and broken pieces…

No matter telling how it will end….car crashes…violence…worldwide diseases…

But it’s important to live every day in hope and love and kindness…

Too often the darker shades keep us small and imprisoned by fear and blindness…

I finally found what’s important…what truly makes life worth living to me…

And all the pain and suffering and tears…

They gave me thankfulness…compassion…courage…to be…

Who I was meant to be….

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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