Rose

Fading beauty…. Sparkling hopeful eyes… Experience of loss will eventually leave you forever changed and a little more wise…. Leaning into the pain…with heart beats and care… Only when we feel love do we allow ourselves to be vulnerable and bare… You can live your entire life guarded and alone if you choose… But if…

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Tears

I love… Every day life gives me… And I embrace a bigger truth beyond what I could ever see… For every darkness in this world I know there’s more and more light… In the most fragile of times… Don’t let hope fade from sight… Battles within are silent and deadly… But until you find inner…

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Need

What if I stopped needing you.. And started needing me instead… What if I was a good enough reason to just get out of bed… What if I didn’t need a perfect fairy tale ending… What if I chose to heal a little at a time and saw my heart as worthy of loving and…

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love you

I love you one second.. I leave you the next… I adore you for an hour… Then put you through endless tests… How I wish I could stop these automatic reactions… But it’s easier if every moment becomes a simple transaction… Then I don’t have to ever feel… And I could convince myself none of…

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First

Call it conditioning… Or cycles of shame… But they both linger… Because so many times I put myself first… Your voice echoes words of condemnation… Selfish… You called me… Who knew how words could wound… A scarlet letter engraved on the walls of a fearful heart…. Selfish… But… Then I think… Of how many times…

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Me

I finally figured it out… Though it took some time… I know now why I lost myself in addictions & useless escapes… In this fantasy I created I fell in love with pain and called it mine…. But all my heart wanted was to protect me from truly seeing what was there all along… If…

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