Poison

The only regrets I had….

Were the ones where harm was done….

To me…

To you…

But I kept your wrongs on a list until…

The words and memories poured bitterness and coldness into me…

I couldn’t change you…

Couldn’t change me so you would love me….

But I…

Found a certain kind of peace….

A quiet calm…

For so long anger fueled me…

Because it ran over all the tears….

But when I found my healing…

I found me too….

Holding onto the pain gave you all the power…

Letting it go…

Empowered me….

And see…

I never wish you ill….

Never wish you any pain….

I only hope you heal too….

That you find yourself and happiness…

Love is such a gift….

A rare and priceless gift….

You can’t put a number or a dollar amount to it…

You can’t own it…

You can’t control it either…

You can only cherish it when it comes…

And say thank you when it leaves..

And I finally found…

The love I always needed….

Was never with you….

Was never in things…

I had to find it within me…

Me…