I wrapped myself in such a beautiful world….

A perfect fantasy….

Where I could never feel…

Alone….

And I lost myself in…

Glittering shades of a fool’s paradise…

Because I couldn’t ever….

Let myself…

Be loved….

I didn’t want to….

Feel…..

And you can’t have love…

If you live in a golden cage….

And I drank every….

Poison….

In my mind….

I wasn’t ever going to let….

Anyone hurt me….

The way you hurt me…

And in turn….

I became….

The villian in my own story….

Hurting me the way….

He used to…..

Harm and love….

Were too easily….

Blurred….

I push you….

I push you and everyone….

Away…..

Just to see…..

Just to see…

Who will ever stay…..

But in this self made prison…..

There’s no real love….

No real connection….

Only….

Only addictions…

Only poisons….

And pretty illusions….

Ones I kept in glittering…

Memories…

And like an addict….

I wouldn’t let anything….

Or anyone…

Take them away….

Or free me….

When all I needed….

Was to free…

Me….

Oh how easily….

We fall in love with….

The pain….

The tears….

Because if we stay….

Stay in our own misery….

We never have to….

Grow….

Change…

Love….

And we’ll be forever….

Imprisoned….

By…

Poisons….

We self create…

But when has suffering…

Ever been cured….

By hate….

Choosing love….

Is easier said than done….

And I….

Chose this path for so long….

But plans laid with fear….

Will always meet…

A certain kind of fate….

Fate…

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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