I’ve never been free…

It was always food or fantasies or running away…

Numbing the pain and emotions…

But feeling it all…

Not turning to anything to escape…

That is a new adventure…

An unwalked path…

But it’s what I need to do…

To be free…

Addictions are a double edged sword…

They will always give you temporary relief…

A few seconds where you are lost in ecstasy…

Then…

Imprisoned by fears…

Ever since I could remember…

I’ve run to escape myself…

My pain…

My fears…

My emptiness…

Only in sitting with all of the discomfort…

The bitter truths…

The sweet honesty….

Do I see it now…

I don’t want to replace one addiction with another…

I need to heal me…

For me…

And for those who love me…

Because being a prisoner of my own poisons…

Is no way to love…

No way to truly live…

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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