Never

Used to numb myself just so I couldn’t feel the pain….

But life is a little darker when you take away both the sunshine and the rain…

My mind goes to a place where it finds an escape from the every day…

Repeated patterns…

They always are ready and willing to forever stay…

But in those cold and lonely moments I had some thoughts that couldn’t be ignored easily…

A promise to be free in the cloud and denial of a perfect beautiful fantasy…

But in this dream my own worst nightmares became a very imprisoning reality…

I could lose myself forever in a lie…

But…

I would never…

Never…

Be able to truly fly….