Thought it would make me happy…

To keep climbing up that mountain…

But when I got to the top….

All the successes felt so empty…

Like tears falling from my fingertips…

All my life…

I was chasing this perfect life I wished I had…

It’s funny….

When you get to what you believe is the top….

Suddenly the view feels completely different…

I thought I needed a title…a position….the prestige…even power…

But the closer I stepped towards the sun…

I saw the true value…

Could never be found outside of me…

All this endless chasing…

How could I be so wrong…

About everything…

Life is…

So precious…

And I wasted so much of it…

Giving into anger…

Feeding my fragile ego…

I believed I was pursuing justice…

For all the things and all the people who hurt me….

I was really….

Just following the path of revenge….

And you can never have both revenge and freedom….

For a time…

My anger…

My pain…

Holding onto that was enough…

But love…

Love requires forgiveness…

And letting go…

I will never get back those days…

Those endless sleepless nights…

And I won’t ever be able to replace the innocence I lost so young…

But…

I can let go…

I can stop chasing after an empty and meaningless life…

I can create a new life…

With the understanding that love is so much more than fear….desperation… despair…

We cannot live in the past…

We can only do our best and learn how to keep living…

Loving…

And hoping for a life we can look back on and be proud of…

Not one of empty trophies…

Or awards and titles…

But one of love.

Posted by:Lauren Kim

🦋 I write my own stories, breathing in life & love by my heart's endless daydreams.

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