It would be easy…. To fall back in old patterns…. Stay with what is familiar and safe…. But I know where that roads leads…. Strange what becomes normal…. How our minds can be conditioned…. Going back to who I was…. Living in a dream…. It would be easy…. I have a choice to make…. Every…

Used to live my life…. In a black & white fantasy…. Where the world was everything… I needed and wanted it to be… But that’s not what living is… When you’re a slave to your own harmful tendencies… I made excuses for why I could never… Break free…. But there was a part within… Where…

I’ve fought in the same war…. A thousand times…. And I blamed everyone else for… Self inflicted crimes…. But when you try to fill the void within…. The battle against yourself… The best contenders convince you there’s no way to win…. Will it ever be…. Enough…. Will I ever be enough…. Pushing away love…. Until…

One page of yesterdays…. One page of tomorrows… One last look at what could have been… And I know everything that happened…. It was all meant to be… Because there’s truth to what they say…. Love somehow knows the way…. Lasting memories begin to fade… I’ve held on for so long it feels good to….…

Look through… Glass tinted eyes… Don’t we all… Wear such pretty disguises…. But real love leaves you… Vulnerable and bare…. So often we must face the very thing… We most fear…. Reflections of the heart blend perfectly… Until… Love becomes all you ever… See…

Thought I wanted a white picket fence… Perfect families only exist in a metaphorical kind of sense… Reality is so much more complex…. I guess there may always be a part of me searching for… Gold and glimmering prospects… Because life always seemed so good in a story book… But flawless happy endings never tell…

I’ve never been free… It was always food or fantasies or running away… Numbing the pain and emotions… But feeling it all… Not turning to anything to escape… That is a new adventure… An unwalked path… But it’s what I need to do… To be free… Addictions are a double edged sword… They will always…

I was wrong about… Everything… When I believed the stories I told myself… Because I wanted to believe in fairy tales… But there’s so much left to heal… But no longer do I… Wish for someone else to save me… When I need to save myself… From running away from life… And hiding… I loved…

I try…. To forget all the ways…. It hurt me to…. Forget you… When the memories…. Became washed with endless tears…. I thought it was easier to…. Lose myself in the pain…. To just…. Stop…. Stop living…. Stop dreaming… Stop loving…. And fall into a dream…. Where you stayed…. Stayed… But I… Can’t change the…

I wished for… So many empty things… And I longed for… The love I thought… Only perfection would bring… Ego is such a… Fragile… Desperate…. Kind of thing…. And I… Tell myself I’m the better one…. But love…. Love shows me… All isn’t said and done…. I thought I could fill the void…. Of you…