White & Pink

Laying in emotionless hearts, encased in white & pink glass walls. Candy rings & sugar spun strings. Fragile tears dyed in water colored memories, tell me again the price of being free. A palace of gold hidden away from the light. Only you know the monsters that come out at night. Your voice is memorizing,…

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Breaking Through

I ran away to hide, to escape the eternal pain & grief I held inside. I never knew my healing was in the acceptance of everything lost to me. My life now meeting the place between free will & beautifully designed destiny. I can finally sleep at night without fearing you will be there. I’m…

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Gracefully

Spare me a story of how it could have been…I can’t see it any other way. I’m counting the moments in my mind as if they were my last. A feeling of longing & humility falling gracefully around me. I know there’s love in the middle of a breaking nightmare. Love has given me a…

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Break

Some days I’m riding a smooth glass wave, sailing curves on a calm horizon. Every thought & emotion touched by golden, flowing waters. Some nights the promise of another morning drowns me with a heavy heart, eclipsed in a dark world of helplessness. It’s only an illusion…the mind creates what we see. But in those…

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Fatal Error

Dark storm clouds in rose twilight skies, mapping silver lined edges of a trauma created world. Before you see me, I’ve already memorized his eyes in place of yours, tragically distant & reflecting a familiar, conditioned cold. I can’t trust anything or anyone without falling into a place drawn masterfully by wordless terror. My mind…

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Good Enough…for you.

I’m holding back tears…wondering why I could never be good enough for you. It hurts me to know I wasn’t worth fighting for, loving, leaving me in every thing you do. I try to move on knowing you don’t care, even growing up it was like you never were truly there. I fell a thousand…

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My Way

Born into a world of invincible highs & impossible lows, distance & time now allowing my heart beats & state of panic to finally slow. The hardest part is truly letting go, still I have all the love in the world for you – I hope somewhere, somehow you know. But I had to leave…

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Sweet Remedy

Every word is a loaded stainless steel gun aimed steadily at my unprotected open heart. Every act of “love” is another dark twisted remedy, lost in chaos & spiked adrenaline. Abusers never wish for you to be fully free. Your blacked out eyes & lethal rage still keeps my hand ever so close to silent…

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Fly

The darkness pulls around me, leaving nothing untouched. Another time, a far away place… Storm clouds gathering overhead and a fluttering within my heart. He stole my voice and shattered my mind, I never thought I’d be the one…whispering thank you to the night. For every edge of black locked in empty eyes, love gave…

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