Fatal Error

Dark storm clouds in rose twilight skies, mapping silver lined edges of a trauma created world. Before you see me, I’ve already memorized his eyes in place of yours, tragically distant & reflecting a familiar, conditioned cold. I can’t trust anything or anyone without falling into a place drawn masterfully by wordless terror. My mind…

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Good Enough…for you.

I’m holding back tears…wondering why I could never be good enough for you. It hurts me to know I wasn’t worth fighting for, loving, leaving me in every thing you do. I try to move on knowing you don’t care, even growing up it was like you never were truly there. I fell a thousand…

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My Way

Born into a world of invincible highs & impossible lows, distance & time now allowing my heart beats & state of panic to finally slow. The hardest part is truly letting go, still I have all the love in the world for you – I hope somewhere, somehow you know. But I had to leave…

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Sweet Remedy

Every word is a loaded stainless steel gun aimed steadily at my unprotected open heart. Every act of “love” is another dark twisted remedy, lost in chaos & spiked adrenaline. Abusers never wish for you to be fully free. Your blacked out eyes & lethal rage still keeps my hand ever so close to silent…

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Fly

The darkness pulls around me, leaving nothing untouched. Another time, a far away place… Storm clouds gathering overhead and a fluttering within my heart. He stole my voice and shattered my mind, I never thought I’d be the one…whispering thank you to the night. For every edge of black locked in empty eyes, love gave…

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