spark

I don’t want to live my life afraid… Back then fear and tears were the only company that stayed…. Sometimes there’s no perfect way to be brave…. But I can’t live the rest of my life in the dark…. Even with all his power he could never diminish her inner spark…

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afraid

I could be afraid for the rest of my life…. And I could lay in bed underneath the covers as your hands sharpen the knife… But every step I used to take was breaking the thin ice around the murder in your eyes… I don’t need to know the unanswered whys…. Live bravely…that’s what I…

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skies

There’s highs and lows… Compliments and blows… When I was living in a fantasy my feet never touched the ground…. But when my entire world shattered peace and unconditional love was what I finally found… It’s hard and it hurts in a way I can’t place… Still pieces of memories my mind unconsciously erased… Sitting…

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me

I never knew me….. But I knew everything he wanted me to be…. I knew the tone of voice and gestures, to perfectly match his plans…. I knew how to act to avoid another fight…. I knew how to say sorry like it was my own name…. I knew how to bow my head in…

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pain

I swallowed his anger and made it my own…. When he lost it over a spilled drink or dropped plates… And I just couldn’t…. Understand it then…. Whenever I made a mistake he would… Light a fire to my heart and watch it burn….. When I was human and vulnerable and real…. He would break…

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enemy

A part of me wants to hide away forever in an illusion of what could never be… And a part of me longs to go back to the way where I felt nothing but carefree… But the beauty in my scars are from knowing pain…. And pain was never my real enemy….

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the world to me

you couldn’t be the one to love me…. and I couldn’t control the outcomes that played out back then…. and that’s okay…. because I’m working on me…. on finding the space between…. hearing my own voice and loving my own place… what we had… it couldn’t be fixed… it couldn’t be helped… it was broken…

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