never give

I don’t want your love when it comes with thorns…. And I don’t want your kindness when it is followed by mind games…. I don’t want your flattery… When you want a fantasy instead… I used to think…. My only role in this life was to… Make you happy… Make you satisfied… But you…. You…

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healing

I’m not doing this for you…. I’m not living my life for your approval… I’m not thirsting for your validation…. I’m not begging for your love…. I’m not clinging to your compliments…. I’m not breathing for your happiness… This is for me. This is so I can feel good about the person I see in…

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love shouldn’t…

love shouldn’t feel dangerous…. love shouldn’t feel lethal…. love shouldn’t feel cold… love shouldn’t feel empty…. love shouldn’t feel hollow… love shouldn’t feel superficial…. love shouldn’t feel unstable…. love shouldn’t feel volatile…. love shouldn’t feel conditional… love shouldn’t feel hopeless… love shouldn’t feel miserable… love shouldn’t feel draining… love shouldn’t feel life taking…. then maybe….…

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save me

I’m cutting off my life support on the fears I lived for… I’m disconnecting my need for outside validation and conditional love… I’m ending my toxic relationship with misery… Back then… Attention, even harmful attention, was life to me… It meant I was able to survive… But in that old life I was always dying…

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fully free

I laugh more to ease the pain… And I forget the sounds of endless rain… Let me keep the moments of love close… Let there be nothing but kindness in the letters you enclose… I hope where ever you are… you are smiling… The tears and loss I’m no longer denying… But acceptance comes unexpectedly….…

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everything

I needed your love more than anything… But when I awoke from my dreams… I found my arms and heart were left completely empty…. A long walk home to the love within me… I once escaped in you… Now I live with the love in me… And losing you… Changed everything… But not in the…

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company

even though it wasn’t love… I became used to your company… even though it wasn’t kind… I adjusted to you painfully…. and the sound of the words you don’t say… shatters my strength and ability to be… okay… but I’ll let go of these memories… and let love show me the way…

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