choose me

there’s no absence left in the places I abandoned….. and I never knew love until I learned how to love myself… it’s really time I said goodbye to the past of stained yesterdays… and embrace the life I have ahead of me… I glorified you… I tore you down… I held on but my heart…

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I’m saying

we were meant to be loved, not imprisoned. but sometimes those we love have an unbreakable chained vision… one where they keep you under their thumb… where it’s okay to treat you like you’re incompetent and dumb… but if that’s the case I’d rather be the only one… because I need me more than I…

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Pain and Fear

The pain and fear are interwoven into every part of her. They create the very fabric of her emotional and mental states. Years and years of conditioning are not easily undone. But the healing comes in puzzle pieces. It will take time to trust…instead of question. It will take time to love…instead of fear. It…

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I loved her

Dark hair, Pinned in pink bows. Bright smiles, Sparkling eyes. Trembling lips. Hidden wrists. Beautiful covers. Words of his: I loved her. Perfect make up. Untouched memory. Castles and heroes. Secret journals. Fairy tale endings. Denial and scars. Bright yesterdays. Fearful dreams. Love stories.        

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Life awaits…

I’m in a better place now, no longer chasing after unavailable love and people. The mindset and thoughts I used to have now feels a little ancient and medieval. Back then, I was in a shattered and vulnerable state. Believed in my heart, I’d always be a victim of a dark and established fate. Looked…

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I loved you still

You taught me abuse was love, and love was abuse. You said my only value was in how I could be used. I spent most of my youth learning how to die and defuse. You could be kind and equally cruel. One day I’m trash, the next a priceless jewel. My mind left battered and…

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