Leap of Faith

Stop. Pause. Breathe. Rest. Begin. Two selves, divided & at war. My true self knows love, my false self never stops wanting more. One resides in heaven, the other in a self created prison. Childhood started & society reinforced this lifelong division. One side knows truth, the other feeds on external validation & attention. Ego…

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My Narrative

A daily narrative subconsciously runs in the background of my mind… Every word & line tied to a memory, worthlessness in all the pathways I find. Powerless in ways, helpless most days. I failed for so long to re-write my past. You can only chase after a feeling for so long when it won’t last.…

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Glass Memories

I was thirteen…when I was killed, metaphorically. Do you think my heart could heal after what you did, rhetorically. Tiny shards of glass memories, broken & torn deep within my heart. Healing is a process but at times it feels as if the emotions tear my love apart. Sitting at the table, a school book…

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Company

Fell from the stars & into a war zone. Did I even have a chance when my fractured heart was infinitely afraid of being left alone? No I didn’t ask for this kind of life but it was given to me. In the past, I believed a martyr was all I would ever be. Today…

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I Surrender

Time is forever fading away….moments & memories collected day by day. Human nature to worship conflict & pain. Without the intensity of it all,  the world seems too quiet & tame. I have no more self defenses, what you do, it hurts me through & through. I realize now the nature & nurture I’ve been…

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Losing You

Count the years….& I don’t know how to face the entire loss of you. It’s just hard when I think of everything you used to put me through. Pseudo apologies in your eyes & I can’t help but to count the lies. How do you erase your father, how do you forgive your mother? Bitterness…

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Connection

I don’t want to talk about me…don’t want to draw attention to these scars. Pulling away from you to be closer to me & trying not to think about how the nightmares got this far. There’s more to the story, sometimes it’s about what wasn’t said or done. Without a connection love slowly & painful…

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Wings

Subtle shifts in your twisted carved eyes, a piercing blackness takes the night. One moment you’re human & the next…a monster without a conscious, triggered by an imagined slight. Your words are just words, but they bleed poison into my  trembling skin. I fight for my life & I’m losing as the helplessness once more…

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Butterfly

Songs still sing in silent hearts, reality in plain sight of perfectly placed shows. Golden lined cages & silver painted echoes of moments lost so long ago. Love will never be imprisoned by the mirage of fears. Joy, treasured one beautiful day in counted tears. Fragile wings, twisted keys, in the end we all long…

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