true

I painted you in this perfect picture…with a glittering golden frame… You were always a world away…you tell me you don’t feel the same… I tried to forget what I feel…. I wanted to numb away what I couldn’t face as real… When I fall …I fall closer to my true self… The bravest act…

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away

He did the best he could… The best he could… Sometimes believing in a lie is easier than swallowing the truth… Acceptance is a strange thing… I always thought I needed his approval…his validation… But… I needed to accept the love he could give…. And the love he couldn’t… The pain he gave… I tried…

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free

I lived in your world… where the air was cold and empty… I lost myself in the glittering lights… the promises you told me felt so hopeful and bright… your love was scarce…I was starving for affection… but I made a fatal mistake when I believed your violence was loving attention… I stay in circles,…

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difference

tell me the words…. you know I want to hear…. hold me close…. make your intentions clear…. but don’t believe I’ll be the one to stay…. when all that’s been said and done… I always had to have it my way…. you call me selfish and full of myself…. you call me what you want…

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Games

You play a game… And I play it twice…. You control me by taking away my power…. And your methods aren’t very nice… Around and around we go…. But there’s a truth only I fully know…. You are a prisoner in your own black fantasy…. Living in a world where you will never love and…

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forgiven

I used to run away sometimes…. Only safe in the places of my mind…. When love was a simple transaction…. The coldest cuts break you into a thousand fractions… I learned a lot from him and I don’t take the lessons for granted… Some will throw themselves in front of the oncoming train for you…and…

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more than enough

I push you away…. Then ask you to please stay… I tell you I don’t need you… Then I reach out in everything I do…. The way I grew up… I was always empty, filling and pouring myself into other peoples’ cups… The trauma doesn’t leave right away… At times you do what you can…

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goals

spent my whole life running in fear…. never knew what it felt like to be able to let go and have no cares… so this is what life feels like… when you don’t have nightmares on your psych… so this is what it feels like to finally let your guard down to reveal… when you…

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keep

you keep her in silence…. you delight in her shame… and she spins circles in a place of eternal blame… the tears falling from her eyes are real…. they reflect the emotions you’re too afraid to feel… and you could capture humanity in her cries… even in dreams… you couldn’t follow her to the places…

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tasted

I don’t want to leave… I don’t want to get better…. But I sit here in old habits and… I lose myself in unsent letters… One step forward… A thousand back to the past…. I struggle and crawl toward tomorrow…. Hoping the last of my strength is enough to last… I loved you until… My…

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