golden

I didn’t want to see it…. The dark shades in my heart…. Ones where I hurt myself… And hurt others… I drank my own poison… Long after childhood memories… And I made excuses and shifted the blame… When I was the one who chose not to fly free… My life shattered completely apart…. Then love……

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selfish

so many tears… for the love I failed to have…. forever chasing after… the love they could never give…. I became someone I didn’t know… trading love for attention… care for obsession… and sorry doesn’t quite cover all the wrongs… but I hope you know… there is only one here… in my heart… I got…

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melody

tried to write myself in a simple happily ever after… memories blurred in the edges of pain and loud laughter… but when my heart was lost…. couldn’t know then the hidden cost… in your eyes I saw my world shatter… in the end… you were all that ever… mattered…

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simple

it’s never quite simple… never more than sweet… and you were… someone I was too afraid to ever… keep… wedding rings… vows and tears to one day bring… but with you… I never regretted a thing…

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keep

I walked away from everyone I’ve ever loved… And I created a world of distance when I couldn’t feel good enough…. I sip sorrow more easily than happiness… And I abandon everything to pretend I don’t miss… The love I can’t ever let myself feel… Convinced too long ago… Love… Could never be real…

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close to the sun

always had you… forever in my heart and memories… but the gold lights drew in the deepest vices within the shattered parts of me… no excuses… no blame…. if I stay in the cycles I know… the ending will be forever the same… my heart is won… since day one… I got caught up in…

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past

the past wants to keep you within golden walls… whispers of an impossible reality as happiness falls… I can’t live like this anymore… addictions and emptiness… there’s just a new and more beautiful life to live for… self delusion is sipping sweet melodies… but even the brightest promises won’t set her free… you can lie…

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addict

in my mind I know every lie… I fell in love with the ones that let my self destructive self… take over as my real one slowly died… just one more…. what could it hurt…. the most lethal danger in… silencing your own cautionary alerts…. the addict in me doesn’t want to let go…. but…

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breathe

I lost it all when I chose to lose myself to you… And I have fallen so far I know at this point our memories stay with me no matter what I do… Human… Aren’t we all just human in the end… Broken from the pain and here I start again…when will my heart begin…

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Easy

It’s too easy to fall from grace… The past and pain I long wished to erase… A single step in the wrong direction…down a path you never planned to take… Until every line and word becomes a perfectly manufactured fake…. Look around at the end… After you’ve burned every bridge… Cut off every family and…

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