Heal and Forgive

Used to believe my self worth was kept with you. Reflecting back…I don’t have good enough reasons for what I once tied myself to. I guess I just wanted to feel loved, but the more I wanted you to see, the less I saw of me… Growing up…it felt like I had no air to…

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All you will ever see…

Despite what I wanted…I adjusted to the tension. They tried so hard to love us, but it was their own hearts that needed attention. Walking on egg shells and watching every word, it was like living in a permanent state of detention. No real moments of letting go, feeling comforted and safe, just a childhood…

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Your Own Voice

For a moment let’s get real… There’s a long history and complexity to the emotions I feel. My dad wasn’t faithful to my mom, cheating on her while wearing a white disguise. But my mom did the same, and you could sense the pain beneath her eyes. I grew up knowing only infidelity and it…

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All I Want to Know

Buy me the world and it won’t mean a thing…. Because all I ever wanted was for you to love me and see the beauty I have to bring. Growing up with fake smiles and secret tears. There’s a part of me that has no idea how I survived all those long, lonely years. And…

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All the Same

You run a dangerous game… To you, we’re all the same. A toy for you to use. But make sure you don’t confuse. Who’s really being played. Around you, love never quite stays. In time…. It will all make sense to me. Never did I realize… You were the one all along who wasn’t truly…

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Dressed in White

You won’t see me walk down the aisle, all dressed in white. Even if I saw you tomorrow, the shade you wear still stirs up past fights. It would be pretending if I said I never cared enough. My heart’s a little shaken within an exterior that’s guarded and tough. The presence you once had…

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A Man I Knew

Your eyes change quickly. Light to dark. Love to fear. Trust to terror. Dad. Protective. Strong. Brave. Hero. A man I knew. Monster. Cruel. Violent. Coward. A man I knew. I loved my dad. But I knew the monster more.  

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