Be

I abandoned myself a long time ago…. But these past few years… It’s beautiful the way I’ve been able to grow… A sight of perfection never exists in reality…. But when I close my eyes… The love in your heart is all I can ever truly see… And its taken me time to fall in…

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cease

I’m mad you could never be the father I needed…. And I grieved the loss of you when it did nothing to beg and to plead…. It was painful and for a while I could only think of what you took…. But my own heart told me to take a closer look…. You didn’t know…

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tidal waves

the shock hits your heart in tidal waves… you just wait for it to end… then the unwelcome panic and pain begin to settle in…. your world is shifted forever… what you knew could never be the same… even when someone else hurts you… somehow you find yourself with tears and blame… then you’re in…

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miss

I’ve stayed with my pain… I’ve wiped away my tears… I’ve had time to reflect on the memories and the years…. It took me a while to learn…. Some pages in this journey you just have to turn… It matters how I look at myself… There’s no shame in breaking down and getting some help……

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normal

it was “normal” for me to cry myself to sleep after another angry, defeated fight…. it was “normal” for me to run away in a place of my own imagination where you couldn’t reach me… it was “normal” for me to shut down emotionally until all I could feel was the numbness as it took…

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used to

used to need you to feel like I could be loved… but I decided I’m going to be my most beloved… because depending on you to feel beautiful and worthy takes a toll… I can’t leave my heart open to be toyed with, that’s no longer my defining role… and I grew up knowing only…

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the love she needed

I grew up with darkness around my heart… Maybe he wasn’t the only one to tear myself apart… A young girl with a distorted reality of her own worth… Deep fears and insecurities she ultimately gave birth… The wild rage she kept was a fire burning in the wind and rain… But she couldn’t face…

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