he wouldn’t…

he wouldn’t like it if I spoke too loudly…. no, he didn’t like the noise… he wouldn’t have wanted me to speak my mind… no, he preferred me quietly playing with simple toys… he wouldn’t have approved if I pursued my art… no, it wasn’t a sensible or practical choice…. he wouldn’t have loved me…

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real life

there was no conspiracy… no bigger scheme… just a girl who experienced abuse & neglect… and created a real life fantasy… there’s a feeling of loss… a different kind of grief… one where you are devastated at the lies you chose too long to believe… but in the lies comes truth… one where you have…

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good bye

I loved someone I never knew… Wrote love letters to a hero in my dreams… Left with tears of a unreal kind… Saying good bye too… The fantasy of my mind…

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stay

I don’t want to grow up… I don’t want to stop believing in fairy tales… But every second longer I stay… The more blurry the details… We existed in my mind… But there you can no longer stay… There you can no longer stay…  

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yours

paint me a picture… of everything you love and admire… whisper warnings but I… can’t stray too far from the fire… but my heart and mind have changed and you know… a flower needs a little sunshine and freedom to grow… and I loved the fairy tale more than the reality… what I learned…. what…

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Closure

I wanted closure… A fitting end to the story…. But real life and fairy tales are not one and the same…. I didn’t get a good enough farewell… A sweet ending… People leave too soon… Others stay too long… And when I think of you…. I miss the love written in every song…

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priceless

took a long look at the life behind me… for a long time all I could think about was the pain…. the tear stained memories…. but now… when I think of those times… all I can think about… is how thankful I am to be here… those dark times… they made me appreciate the good……

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show

I grew up in a war zone… Emotional battles and psychological games…. For a long time…. A normal life felt boring and too tame…. But the deeper I searched… And the further I traveled within…. I knew in my heart I was still fighting a battle…. My mind believed I couldn’t win…. The past is…

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love me

he convinced me I could never be loved…. and it killed me to live a life only he dreamed of…. you can have the whole world love you… and it won’t mean a thing… because if you can’t love the person in the mirror…. you’re a caged  bird, fear stealing your voice to sing… and…

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