endings

I loved you in fairy tales and happy endings… In reality, my heart and soul are still struggling and mending… And I just couldn’t keep pretending… To love you when I keep defending… I wish it didn’t end the way it did… But I was just a kid….  

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care

I try to love you but it hurts too deep…. There’s too many painful memories I don’t want to keep… I don’t know where we go from here… There’s still a part of me that lives in fear… Wishing and waiting patiently for you to selflessly care…

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day

I don’t want to care about you… I don’t want it to consume my day… But the heart doesn’t care for logic and reasoning… Love was love until it wasn’t meant to stay… You’re everything and nothing… And I don’t know what to say…

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see

you once lived only in a far off fantasy… but you represented a broken part of me… there’s no way to curb the harshness of some realities… and I try to wipe the memories… when they were once all I could ever see…

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whole heart

I’ve been avoiding the way I need to make permanent changes in my own life when I know it won’t be easy… But it has to happen… My old habits, past, and excuses…have to die now Self assassin… Killing off the parts of me that led to my own self destruction… It’s the only way…

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know

I’m no saint, no I won’t pretend to be… Even if condescension lines every word you say to me… But I can’t respond to hate with more hate… If I did…your destiny would seal my own fate… Sometimes you just have to let it go… So you can stay with the love you want to…

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listen

The old me needed you like a drug… But holding onto you left me helpless in the grave I alone dug… And you can only sweep everything under the rug… For so long… Before the poison you create seeps into every song… And I got used to a life of dependency… But the last few…

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