for my own good

I’m a little too stubborn for my own good. When I know exactly what I need to do, I do the opposite of what I should. I have too many opinions and I’m not afraid to let you know. When your love feels fake, I call you out and tell you to stop putting on…

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Who I Was Before

Loving someone in a fantasy… It’s not the same as embracing love’s real complexity. Any day of the week, I’d rather be loved than adored. You were my entire world…for the record. But the hero I believed in, he had a darkness we all ignored. If I had just…seen the pain in the drinks you…

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Reflect

We pretend small talk matters. You say one word and my heart completely shatters. Fear, not love, is what you truly inspire. Our relationship long expired. I’m grown now, sometimes I just tire. You once took me in and drew the line. All your care for me was flawed in its design. Your hands closed…

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Loud and Clear

Count the signs of unhealthy dependency. These childhood roots are invisible for bystanders to see… He and I had a relationship of extreme intensity. Fantasy will never be the same as true intimacy. Help me to know the difference between love and fear. Healthy relationships don’t leave you alone and powerless in tears. All this time I…

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Heal and Forgive

Used to believe my self worth was kept with you. Reflecting back…I don’t have good enough reasons for what I once tied myself to. I guess I just wanted to feel loved, but the more I wanted you to see, the less I saw of me… Growing up…it felt like I had no air to…

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All you will ever see…

Despite what I wanted…I adjusted to the tension. They tried so hard to love us, but it was their own hearts that needed attention. Walking on egg shells and watching every word, it was like living in a permanent state of detention. No real moments of letting go, feeling comforted and safe, just a childhood…

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Your Own Voice

For a moment let’s get real… There’s a long history and complexity to the emotions I feel. My dad wasn’t faithful to my mom, cheating on her while wearing a white disguise. But my mom did the same, and you could sense the pain beneath her eyes. I grew up knowing only infidelity and it…

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